Feeling sad and unimportant

My mom called today like she always does on Monday night but I really did not want to talk to her tonight. I don't know why and I don;t know what brought this about. I took a nap right before she called me and before I went to take a nap, I was perfectly fine. But it's like, as soon as I woke up from my nap, I was feeling so down like I haven't felt in a long time. Well, I was down yesterday too and this would rival it :-P I aam feeling better now but still I was soo out of it in the whole phone call. I did not want to answer her questions cuz they are like the same questions every time. I know I'm far away from her and she cares about me but what can possibly happen in one week. Then again, I never tire of answering those questions. Maybe today, I was getting pissed cuz I didn't want to talk to begin with.

I can't install PHP on my computer to save my life. I need it installed so I can start working on my damn Hogtender project. I need to start working on it soon. I also need to work on getting the blog set up for Theta Tau's Housing Corporation website. BTW, the groundbreaking ceremony for the new house was very successfull and we showed up today in two of the local newspapers - one with a big high resolution color pic of the new fraternity house and everything. Woo hoo to the chapter. It's finally happening although I'm not an active member any more btu nevertheless I'm still a member.

Sometimes I feel that time goes really fast and sometimes it feels like time is dragging along. Can you feel both of those in a matter of two hours? I wonder. But as it is, I have so much to take care of and I hope everything falls into place. I need to pray more than I do. The only praying I do is say Sure Fateha and Sure Ahad in the morning before I go to work and at night before I go to bed. That is not enough. Although I take the name of Allah more than once in the day which is better than a lot of people. But I should do more.

I'm going to try to post regularly. It does feel good to post. Lets feelings out.